Boring Update

Ooooooooohhhhkkk. I am SO BORED lately. My depression has gotten like 5 times worse. I come home from work and have nothing to do. We don't have any money so I can't do crafts or anything which is what I normally do. My pay checks have sucked lately because i'm getting less than 20 hours a week. So after January 1st i'm going to start looking for a new job. I've already applied to one but we'll see. So I am SO excited to go home for Christmas! We are leaving the 22nd and are driving to Rexburg which is half way and we're going to stay with Heidi and Ben and I am SO excited. Warning to my siblings: I will be hogging your kids during the week i'm home. Everytime I talk to Rad and Cade on the phone and start to tear up. Its SO hard being away from them when i've seen them at least once a week since they were born. I'm not used to being away from family and its NOT fun. So i've been trying to lose weight but its so not easy. You'd think being poor and not being able to afford lots of food would help me LOSE but the saying 'Poor people can't afford skinny food' is so true. I mean I know that I can try harder but we really only get dollar store meals or the $3 box meals at walmart. So i'm having a really hard time with that. I think that's where alot of my depression is coming from because back when I lost the 40 pounds I was SO happy and SO comfortable and now I gained it all back and I don't even like going to the store. It's something I really need to take care of because its not fair to myself or to Alex that i'm so unhappy. So on a less depressing note - i'm still extremely annoyed/frustrated/mad that our roomate moved out after the first week and left us with a two bedroom apartment that we dont need and can barely afford but we've turned it into a garage/christmas storage room so that's cool. Here's a picture of some of Alex's tools and his two axles that weigh close to 400 pounds a piece! His friend Ryan came over today and helped him move them out of the back of the Yukon and into the room. He went and bought a piece of plywood for $8 to put them on.